I wish I could turn off the voice in my head // The wall I’ve been building is burning again // Head first I jump – no regrets // I hope I find out where it leads in the end //
If it‘s good I make it bad // And if it’s bad I make it worse //
It’s always the same // I never learn // I’m never ashamed of the bridges I burn // If it’s good // I make it bad //
The voice in my head tells me to lay a fire // I’m losing grip on this mad desire // I need rock bottom to get me high // If I say I love you I am a liar //
If it‘s good I make it bad // And if it’s bad I make it worse //
It’s always the same // I never learn // I’m never ashamed of the bridges I burn // If it’s good // I make it bad //
If it’s bad // I make it worse //
Bad - I make it worse //
Always the same // I never learn //
I’m never ashamed of the bridges I burn // if it’s good I make it bad // If it‘s good I make it bad // And if it’s bad I make it worse //
If it‘s good I never learn
Welcome to my head again // I usually make plans so I can cancel them // Yeah I really wish I could explain the hell // I’m sad, angry, but happy when I’m mad // And no one understands me damn // Now I am alone again and I may cry a little but I’m fine with that // Yeah there was a time I used to dance with death // but I got over that and now I write instead
But there’s no peace in my mind
You know sometimes I hate myself
Just another Friday night // I know you are longing for a stable life // but all I ever did is trying to survive // if I could, I would, but we both know I’m dead inside // I’ve seen so many PhDs // still my thoughts are speaking way too loud to me // so I took some pills to get a little peace in me // hardly did I know they’d be erasing me
But there’s no peace in my mind
You know sometimes I hate myself
I woke up just in time // think I’m doing fine // waiting for a sign and I don’t know why // I woke up just in time // I think I’m doing fine // waiting for a sign til the end of time //
But there’s no peace in my mind
You know sometimes I hate myself
Maybe, just maybe //I will learn to forget, learn to forget //
Daydream, Daydream // Will I wake up again, wake up again?
Head up high on the borderline //
A smile on my face says I’m alright // Been this way for the longest time // When I say I’m fine it’s most likely a lie
Maybe, just maybe //I will learn to forget, learn to forget //
Daydream, Daydream // Will I wake up again, wake up again?
Got so used to lonely midnight cries //
All I know is - never let them know // So even if inside my
thoughts go wild // You know I would never show
Maybe, just maybe //I will learn to forget, learn to forget //
Daydream, Daydream // Will I wake up again, wake up again?
We could call it a weakness // Might line up the reasons //
And the changing of seasons // Almost got me believing //
Time will do all the healing // But I’m still here making sense of feelings // Oh so sick not knowing what they mean // And I still scream, tell me can you hear it?
Maybe, just maybe // I will learn to forget, learn to forget //
Daydream, Daydream // Will I wake up again, wake up again?
Met you in the daylight, left you in the blacknight // Got the same scars same stains on our hands // Never be the same now I don’t even know how // I go back to life when there’s you in my head // And now I can’t let go // I can’t move on // And so I drown alone // All alone
Lay my head under the water
Lay my head under the sea
I overshare but I don’t bother
I wasn’t safe wasn’t safe, safe from me
Still remember that night I haven’t seen the daylight // Ever since I lost any sense within me // I know it’s getting tight now, if only I knew how
I can run away when I won’t disagree // 'Cause I can’t let go I can’t move on // And so I drown alone // All alone
Lay my head under the water
Lay my head under the sea
I overshare but I don’t bother
I wasn’t safe wasn’t safe, safe from me
I can’t let go // I can’t move on // I drown alone //
I don’t want I don’t want to but I //
Can’t let go (won't let go) // I can’t move on (won’t move on) //
I drown alone (drown alone) //
We were born alone and we die alone
Lay my head under the water
Lay my head under the sea
I overshare but I don’t bother
I wasn’t safe wasn’t safe, safe from me
I still remember the look in your eyes // Sitting in silence we drove through the night // I broke to pieces and you pulled me close // I said I feel lost so I have to go // I never promised to always be here // The ghost of a memory might haunt me for years // I never planned on me changing my mind // What can I do when I'm empty inside? //
I don't need you // like I thought I would do //
Hope that I see you never // I'm so over you
I don't need you // like I thought I would do //
But then I see your face again and think I still do
There are still moments, I won't deny // I know what I've lost, what's now behind // Time turns us to strangers and memories they fade // But most of my dreams still begin with your face // For worse or for better, that's what they say // Society games I don't know to how play // Maybe I'm destined to be on my own //
Cause when I'm with you, I'm already gone //
I don't need you // like I thought I would do //
Hope that I see you never // I'm so over you
I don't need you // like I thought I would do //
But then I see your face again and think I still do
Maybe one day I'll look back in regret // I'm trying my best to get out of my head // I've never been stable, a permanent mess // Somehow I like it, I must confess //
Cause in the end it's all the same // Over and over again
I walk away from good and safe // Over and over again
I don't need you
I don't need you // like I thought I would do //
Hope that I see you never // I'm so over you
I don't need you // like I thought I would do //
But then I see your face again and think I still do